Casual Thoughtfulness!

When you really have nothing to do…have some spare time in your kitty – GO NOSTALGIC. Yes! That’s the best way to deal with time that you don’t want to put in practical use. Remember the good old school days, dozing off in the hindi lecture while the teacher chanted the “Dohas of Sant Kabir”; going zapped in the history class, for why the hell did anyone even think of attacking another’s land or wife or whatever??? What were they even thinking? Nerds!!! Trying to figure out why in the world would any metal or non-metal react to hydrogen and oxygen, and what made the two similar poles repel and that chapter on life process-2, how it always opened the eyes even when we detested waking up. The pranks on some of the fellow classmates and even on those imbecile teachers (no offence); how we evaded the physical education period by making silly excuses of having a tummy ache, or a head ache, or even better, a sprained ankle. Annoying the class topper by hiding the books, not doing home ...

Here’s a list of confessions that we all make at every moment of life. Along with, are the contradictions that hover the mind. Confession #1: I hate to CHANGE MYSELF. Contradiction #1: Change is the only constant Phenomenon. If changes don’t happen life becomes monotonous and boring. The question is why do we fear change so much? If we were to change, must be for self-amelioration. It’s always hard to accept changes. Especially the major ones that life throws on us. Confession #2: I want FREEDOM. Contradiction #2: We all have freedom of speech, of expression, the basic rights, all within the barriers of our culture that we individually follow. But here’s a turn. We are still not free enough to take a plunge into the wickedest and yet dearest of things that we wish to do. There is a thin line between being selfish and being free. The fear is we never know when we cross that line and behave selfish than being free. Confession #3: I know what you are THINKING. Contradiction #3:...

How do people avow that they understand their partner/friend/mate whosoever, pretty well. What is that one thing that makes them certain that yes, I know this person unquestionably. I understand people and their behaviour, obviously, by spending time with them, judging their body language; making them comfortable to express themselves; and ofcourse, with the help of my psychic instincts. All said and done, I realized how misquoted I have been all through. Arrogance, intolerance, rigidity, dominance, and many more such synonymous words are always tagged along with me. To which I strongly condemn as being assertive, opinionated, pliable and forbearing lest be provoked deliberately.  We all have shortcomings, and during those extreme exhibitions, people just opinionate you as they see you. This vision, however, is an attempt made by an undesirable and unavoidable situation that elicit the subversive you. It is just an ignored part of your nervous system that ousts a hidden or may b...

Life seems to be in a rush. It’s the fourth month of the year and to my surprise I did not realize that we have crossed one-third of the year. The past three months just passed by with so many extreme highs and lows that it was impossible to actually sit back and count the number of days. This time around, I realized how time flies and how we run on our foot to chase it. This happens to be my 20th post. The number is quite important for me as it coincides with my date of birth. I am not a very superstitious person, yet I have a strong feeling about the year 2011, once again with reference to my date of birth as 20.11.2011. Okay! I might appear to be a little boastful but honestly I am looking forward to the coming year for this particular reason. This may sound like a post to be written on 31st December 2010. How does that matter when you write it down, its all about when and how you feel. With “feel”- the word coming into play once again, I feel the word is such an overrated actor...

You say you like someone, then you say you have crush on someone, and then there are some whom you just like all the time of your life but they are not your crush, not your beloved, neither your best friends. During the journey of life, we keep bumping into people of all sorts, style, manner, genre and psyche. We befriend some; we fall in love with a few and some just go by as “Wow! I like him” and then you forget them the next day. There is one more classification. There are some people you simply like throughout your life without much expectations. This liking is so mutual, you are utterly comfortable with this person, you enjoy talking, sharing; you build a great level of trust with each other; and things never change between you two. There is an unambiguous alliance, based on trust, care, admiration, and respect, that institutes a mutual affinity which continues forever. You get into relationships, you break off, you make new friends, you party with your childhood best friends, ...

Anger, a strong feeling of annoyance, vexation, or hostility, is something you cannot avoid not matter how patient you are. When you are angry, everything comes under your scan, it gives you a headache, heartache, stomachache (may be), basically immense displeasure. So did happen to me. I was in great discomfit sometime back. I was angry. I am quite blatant by nature (being modest), so when I am angry, I avoid people to get in my way and become the victim of my crossness unnecessarily. This time, it so happened, I was angry, I was hurt, and for a change I controlled myself. I kept mum, I did not think, I did not utter a single word. I lied down, before the tears could come rolling, I closed my eyes. I defied anger, I tried to let go, to get normal, unaffected. It was then that I found solace, a moment of truce that demarcated a new span of control within me. I had never been so much at peace ever before. It felt, I had crossed my own limitations and enhanced my own magnitude of resi...